But actually, I have another important (yes, it really change my perception in life) thing to let the whole world to know. I told myself that this is the right time to confess. It's kinda big secret about my lil angel that I've kept from my surroundings (colleagues, friends and others) for almost over a year. Yes, I live in a lie. I've been a hypocrite person for over a year (especially to my colleagues). I admit, I am bad. I'm a bad mother, I'm not a good person. But honestly, EVERYTIME I LIED, I FELT SO GUILTY! I felt like wanna tell everybody the truth, I do really want people to know. But I don't have the gut to tell them. Not because of embarrassment, I just don't want people to sympathize. I don't need their sympathy. I just need a positive support. Yes, I really need it a LOT!!! However, it's been almost a year and a month, and in that period of time, I've build my strength by seeing her grows healthily and beautifully each and every day. And it promised myself that everything gonna be perfectly ok. She'll grown up as a lovely and independent person. She'll be a strong and brave girl compared to me. And she'll always be the sun who shine my day. She's my special sweetheart.
Yes, my lil angel is special. She has Down Syndrome.
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