Monday, April 18, 2011

An open box...

Alhamdulillah...Selesai sudah majlis hari jadi Dhia Azra Awfeeya & Asha Nur Alyssa Sabtu lepas, 16hb April...(gambar akan di'upload' kemudian) Syukur, everything went well eventho ada sikit kelam kabut here n there (so sorry...) sebab masa untuk preparation sangat tight, walaupun telah di plan awal tapi last minit I've gotta go to east coast for site visits on Thursday and Friday. So the food preparations and decorations were done on that Saturday morning. Memang tak menang tangan, but luckily I've got a great team to work on it (Ibu, Mak Teh, Bibik and Kak Ein on food side... Ika, Abby and Adek si peniup belon on deco side...) Thanx so much u guys!! Tambah tak berapa best pulak, lil angel takde mood nak potong kek pulak. Meragam kepenatan dari awal majlis, nasiblah Kak Lyssa on good mood and so excited to potong kek. Overall, it still can be considered as a great party. Dan macam yang aku inginkan, our families gathered together and having fun on that day. =)

But actually, I have another important (yes, it really change my perception in life) thing to let the whole world to know. I told myself that this is the right time to confess. It's kinda big secret about my lil angel that I've kept from my surroundings (colleagues, friends and others) for almost over a year. Yes, I live in a lie. I've been a hypocrite person for over a year (especially to my colleagues). I admit, I am bad. I'm a bad mother, I'm not a good person. But honestly, EVERYTIME I LIED, I FELT SO GUILTY! I felt like wanna tell everybody the truth, I do really want people to know. But I don't have the gut to tell them. Not because of embarrassment, I just don't want people to sympathize. I don't need their sympathy. I just need a positive support. Yes, I really need it a LOT!!! However, it's been almost a year and a month, and in that period of time, I've build my strength by seeing her grows healthily and beautifully each and every day. And it promised myself that everything gonna be perfectly ok. She'll grown up as a lovely and independent person. She'll be a strong and brave girl compared to me. And she'll always be the sun who shine my day. She's my special sweetheart.
Yes, my lil angel is special. She has Down Syndrome.   

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