Thursday, July 28, 2011



I JUST....


Weeeehooo.... =)

Tuesday, July 26, 2011


She's weak..

She was so weak on that weekend..

It's almost a week she's down with fever + cough + flu..

She didn't want to eat, drink, not even want to play..

The only she wanted to do is...

She cries...
(As if the tears would heal away the pain..)

She cries...
(Hoping her mummy and daddy understand the pain she's going through..)

It tear our hearts into pieces seeing her suffering. We've referred her to the doctor before but still not recover. Worried so much (because she has pneumonia history), last Saturday, we brought her to the doctor again and doctor said her lungs already infected so she needs to be given antibiotic and drip.

An IV line was set to her tiny lil hand. Poor lil angel.. =( 

Get well sayang...It hurts me the most seeing u in pain.


Friday, July 22, 2011

Rain..Rain..Go Away...

Susah hati...

Masuk hari ni genap 5 hari si kecil demam...

Sayu hati...

Bila tengok si kecil yang setiap hari penuh dengan gelak tawa, merengek tak bermaya...

Sakit hati...

Tak punya banyak waktu untuknya saat dia memerlukan aku...

Sabarlah wahai hati...

Tentunya ini ujian buatmu...semoga kau sentiasa tabah dan kuat menghadapinya...

Hujan.. cepatlah berlalu kecilku dambakan cahaya mentari di pagi hari...

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

09th to 10th...


 We're heading to the North (Alor Setar, Kedah to be specific), running away from KL and getting rid of BERSIH  (not so bersih pun..) attending an important occasion - my cousin's engagement. The ceremony went very well; started with her nephew's aqiqah and continued with her engagement. Not so much pics were taken due to babysit lil angel. Anyway, to my dearest cousin Farhana...


The journey has just begin... =D

The only snap with the bride-to-be... =)

***Would also like to congratulate MY DEARIE BESTFRIEND - DALINA on ur big day!!! A gazillion sorry for not being there, darling!!! Hope u guys have a life filled with love and lots of happiness!!!


“For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.”
-Judy Garland

{ 10/07/09 - 10/07/11 }



p/s : I LOVE YOU...

Thursday, July 7, 2011


Have you heard of XENOTRANSPLANT??

Never heard of it??

According to Wikipedia:
Xenotransplantation is the transplantation of living cells, tissues or organs from one species to another, such as from pigs rabbits to humans. Such cells, tissues or organs are called xenografts or xenotransplants.

If you want to know more about it, google for FCTI or BCRO. It'll explain more on it.

Honestly, I never heard of it before until lil angel came into my life. Yes, not only she shines my world, she also teaches me to understand a lot of science language which I didn't know exists for 26 years of my life.

I was first introduce to it over a year before by lil angel's pediatrician, Dr Lim. He consults us about the procedure and told us that most of Down Syndrome children who went on this procedure shows better improvement. He assured us that this procedure does not give harm to our child. There are only two possible outcomes: either there will be an improvement, or there will be no change in the condition of patient. But one thing that might make us think twice is the cost...which is very costly!! He also gave us a few numbers of parents whom their child went on the procedure so they can share their experience with us and we get the information needed before deciding to proceed or not.

Yes, we did called the parents and they're being so supportive. They kept talking bout their child's improvement and positive development after the injection which makes us decided to give it a try. For the sake of her health, why not? After discussing with  family members we're agreed to proceed on the procedure. Her 1st injection was a terrible experience for me. Thinking of normal injection, with a small needle, yes I can deal with it. But I was totally wrong! If u ever had an experience with epidural, u know how big the needle is! And a dosage of cell is about 10ml and she'd been given 2 dosages of cell for the first injection. Can u imagine seeing your lil ones being hurt and u can't do anything?? Hearing her screaming and crying painfully REALLY hurts me. I remembered the thing that I could only do to calm her down was whispering to her ears with teary eyes "You're a strong girl...Mummy's here with u sayang and mummy loves u so much.." and I kept praying to Allah to lessen her pain. And when it's all done, I whispered to her ear again, "Forgive me sayang, I'm doing all of this for your own good. I want you to have a good life and bright future. I love you." And the same situation happen each and everytime she went on the procedure.

Yesterday was lil angel's 4th xenotransplant stem cell injection. This time she was given FOUR cells; medulla alba, cardiomyoblast, frontal lobe, temporal lobe and thalamus. Four cells going to cause her so much pain. I've set my mind, whatever it is I have to be strong as she needed me so much. We arrived at the clinic around 11.00am and her appointment was on 11.40am. After reading and signing the consent letter, we waited for a while before her name was called by the nurse. Her daddy carried her to the procedure room and I followed behind. I knew I have to be strong but I am not. Hearing her loud painful cry made me teary-eyed. I can't bear seeing her in pain, in fact I kept on asking the nurse "Are we done yet??". Alhamdulillah the procedure went well. She was given a bed for rest while waiting doctor to come and observed her before she can go home but as soon as we're there, she has stopped crying and started playing with her daddy, rolling over the bed, moved her body once I sang her favourite nursery rhymes. She seems totally forgot about her pain. Looking at her beautiful smile and cheerful laugh, I praised to Allah for giving me a strong and tough girl!! 


 my lil angel after the injection

 starts playing with daddy...=D

See, the sun that shines my day... Love her so much!!!

Monday, July 4, 2011

Retail Therapy... Ada Apa Dengan Pavi??


Hey, I've noticed that last month I only had ONE post!! Huhuu..and it's all about my PMS??!! Duuhh~ So pathetic.. Ok, so this time around I promised myself to have at least 4 posts on this month...yeah, will try!! =D

So, wondering what my early July were filled with?? Here it goes..Two weekends in a row were filled with a trip to Pavilion. Teheee... =D Since this month is Mega Sale's month, so we (Asyraf, Awfeeya and me) decided to spend our weekend by having some retail therapy at Pavilion. Why Pavilion??

5 simple reasons:

1) Because it's a stone throw from my house. =D

2) Because I personally found out it was the best place to be for window shopping!! =D All the brands are under one roof, you just have to name it...From Gucci, Hermes, Prada, Versace, Marc Jacobs, Coach, Tommy Hilfiger, Aigner, DKNY to Guess, Aldo, Nine West, Zara, Gap, MNG, Charles & Keith and soooo muchhh moreee...

3) There were so much variety of food there. Name it international or local cuisine, just step at the foodcourt, you'll find what you're craving for. Or if you feel like chilling and relaxing while listening to band, there were street bistros and cafe at Level 3 where you can hang out and meet up with your buddies.

4) And the crowds were lesser compared to KLCC (the comparison were due to the distance from my house.. ;) )


5) If you feel like want to 'berangan' at overseas, you can walk up to the entrance and feel the surroundings. There are more shopping malls nearby; Star Hills, Fahrenheit, and if you walk further up you'll see BB Plaza, Sungei Wang and Times Square. I dunno.. but personally, when I be there, I feel like I wasn't at my own country. (When I missed UK, this was what I usually do..ngee..)

So, let see what do we found at Pavilion during our 'trip' : =P

 Pavilion - night  scene
Kalau nak berangan kat oversea, try lepak kat luar ni.. Rasa cam kat Bullring, Birmingham...

 From the inside..


Too tired..Lil angel's sleeping..

Last but not least, we've found supermarket here called Mercato ;)

This is the main reason why we're here...groceries shopping!!
Naahh...hahaha... =P

And look what we found inside the Mercato... a superbly gorgeous Nurul!!! =D
It really made my day!!! Yippieyaayyy!!! 
(We do hugs and laga-laga pipi hokaayyy...sangat teruja!!!) 

Ok now let see what we got from Pavilion (besides the groceries)...

For him...
G-Shock watch..

For her...

Nine West heels..


Refill compact powder, eyeliner and bronze eye shadow (to compliment this year's raya theme)..

Okie, that's all for now I guess..till then...taaa...